Archive for November, 2008

When does my life begin?

We spend eighteen years as “children.” When do we really become “grown up?” My best friend recently turned eighteen. I’m eighteen in a few months. It doesn’t make you a grown up.

We seem to think of growing up as working towards real life. We’re kids, we think, we have all the time in the world. We have our whole lives ahead of us. So we put off things we’d love, because we think we have years for it, whatever it is.

Maybe this way of thinking makes us waste the first eighteen or so years of our lives. Maybe it doesn’t. Depends on what you think of as “wasting.”

I feel like the first 17-and-change years of my life have been working towards independence. I’ve been working towards taking charge of my life. But…am I ever going to be in sole charge of my life?

I think not. Now, it’s my parents. Someday, it’ll be a job, maybe a family, but there will always be something standing in my way of being in control of my life. I can fight it. I can try to change it. But can I change it? I don’t think so. But can I accept it? I don’t think so. I want to be in charge of my life. I want to be in charge of where I am, who I am, who I spend time with, what I do with my life. But I don’t know if I am, or ever will be.

What is independence? Do we ever have it? Does it mean loneliness? Do we even want it?

Where I’ve Been

I’ve been immersed in the college applications process. I’ve been writing essays about why I want to go to each of the colleges on my list. I’ve been writing essays about how I fit into their missions and communities. I’ve been writing essays about my life experiences. I’ve been filling out my biographical information and talking about my extracurricular activities. I’ve been requesting and mailing my school transcripts and teacher recommendations. I’ve been paying application fees, which are certainly adding up. I even made a trip up to Washington, DC to visit some schools (and decided to apply to George Washington University). I’ve been working hard in school to try and improve my chances of actually being accepted into some of the schools I love.

And, yes, I love every one of the schools I’m applying to, even though my application list is far too long. I would be thrilled to go to any of them. Money, I think, will be the deciding factor. And that makes me sad. Money has too much control over our lives. Money will be deciding where I spend the next four years of my life. My parents are a little reluctant to contribute to my college education. They’re not paying my application fees, and they won’t give as much as the government will say they should be able to towards my tuition, not by a long shot. I’m not sure what I’ll do next year if some college or another doesn’t offer me a very nice scholarship.

I’m worried. I’m worried about the fact that my future is not in my control anymore. It’s in the hands of admissions committees and financial aid offices. I believe that I would be an asset to any of these schools; I’m just not sure how to make them believe it enough.

Wish me luck, and luck to all those going through this process with me!

modern skepticism, religion, and prophecy

Jesus. Ellen G. White. Noah. Muhammad. Buddha. Abraham. Moses. Joseph Smith.

What do all of these names have in common?

These people were all believed by a significant number of people to be “special.” In most of those cases, I mean they had visions from God. Or, at least, people believed they did. Some of those people are now founders of major religions. Others are at least major influences on religion. The most recent of them is Ellen G. White, whose first vision was in 1844 and who died in 1915. The earliest was thousands of years before that.

Why were these people not seen as crazy or fraudulent? Why did so many people actually follow them? Why do large numbers of people continue to follow their teachings?

Part of the development of any religion is the culture and circumstances surrounding it, which I won’t get into with the above because this is not an analysis of the beginnings of specific religions. But what makes these figures not insane cult leaders? Conversely, who’s to say that insane cult leaders aren’t really divine visionaries?

Why is Ellen G. White the most recent of those names, and not one of the most major (she was a Seventh Day Adventist reformer, in case you didn’t know)?

All valid questions, I say. While I could analyze each case individually, and might at a later date, right now I want to make some broad statements.

First of all, to be followed, one has to have the right type of personality. Leadership ability and charisma play a big part here. What you say must also be attractive to a significant number of people, for whatever reason; they must be unsatisfied with what they currently have (for example, Buddhism appealed to lower castes in India because Hinduism was unsatisfying to those whose lives were already set to be less than wonderful, and who could not change that).

I also think that we’ve grown more skeptical as time goes on. People today know far more about the world and how it works than people thousands of years ago. With scientific explanations in place for those unsatisfied with traditional religious beliefs, we have less of a need to turn to the supernatural to explain our world. And with more knowledge and education, we become more skeptical. We don’t believe everything we’re told. We are constantly drowning in a flood of information; we have to be discerning. We can’t believe everything that is shoved in our faces on a billboard as we drive down the highway. We can’t believe everything in the magazines at grocery store checkouts. We can’t believe everything we see on our television screens or read on the internet.

We want proof. We check our facts. We’re right to do this; plenty of false information is floating around out there (my grandmother, for instance, believes that Barack Obama is a Muslim terrorist who hates white people and America). We have learned not to trust advertisements.

Overall, as a society, we are more skeptical. This provides less of an opening for someone to step in and start a new religion. We also have contact with far more people. If we encounter half a dozen different religions, we know they’re not all right, so why add more to that confusion? A few hundred years ago, most people didn’t travel far from home, so they didn’t encounter too many different sets of beliefs.

These days, someone who would formerly have been a prophet is a lunatic. What does that make the names I mentioned at the beginning of the article? I’ve no idea.

It’s a combination of factors, obviously, and I can’t explain it all, but it’s certainly food for thought.